love is sweet, love is kind..
love is everything nice..


no one mentioned how badly it could hurt. it makes u fall so deeep getting up is hard.
it tears you apart. it makes you feel you do not want to try it ever again because you will end up getting more hurt in the end. you don want to think about it but it keeps coming back to haunt.you keep yourself busy but in the corner of your mind he is still there.


i'm trying to pick myself up, piece by piece.
i'm trying not to think about you by keeping me busy
i keep myself happy in school with my friends


but i still miss you.

i failed.

i can change my clothes, my hair or how i speak.



i cant change the fact i cant forget.






*&%$#@$%^$


i hate myself

big butts :=)

SIR MIX-A-LOT LYRICS

"Baby Got Back"

[Intro]
Oh, my, god. Becky, look at her butt.
It is so big. *scoff* She looks like,
one of those rap guys' girlfriends.
But, you know, who understands those rap guys? *scoff*
They only talk to her, because,
she looks like a total prostitute, 'kay?
I mean, her butt, is just so big.
I can't believe it's just so round, it's like,
out there, I mean - gross. Look!
She's just so ... black!

[Sir Mix-a-Lot]
I like big butts and I can not lie
You other brothers can't deny
That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
And a round thing in your face
You get sprung, wanna pull out your tough
'Cause you notice that butt was stuffed
Deep in the jeans she's wearing
I'm hooked and I can't stop staring
Oh baby, I wanna get with you
And take your picture
My homeboys tried to warn me
But that butt you got makes me so horny
Ooh, Rump-o'-smooth-skin
You say you wanna get in my Benz?
Well, use me, use me
'Cause you ain't that average groupie
I've seen them dancin'
To hell with romancin'
She's sweat, wet,
Got it goin' like a turbo 'Vette
I'm tired of magazines
Sayin' flat butts are the thing
Take the average black man and ask him that
She gotta pack much back
So, fellas! (Yeah!) Fellas! (Yeah!)
Has your girlfriend got the butt? (Hell yeah!)
Tell 'em to shake it! (Shake it!) Shake it! (Shake it!)
Shake that healthy butt!
Baby got back!

(LA face with Oakland booty)
Baby got back!

[Sir Mix-a-Lot]
I like 'em round, and big
And when I'm throwin' a gig
I just can't help myself, I'm actin' like an animal
Now here's my scandal
I wanna get you home
And ugh, double-up, ugh, ugh
I ain't talkin' bout Playboy
'Cause silicone parts are made for toys
I want 'em real thick and juicy
So find that juicy double
Mix-a-Lot's in trouble
Beggin' for a piece of that bubble
So I'm lookin' at rock videos
Knock-kneeded bimbos walkin' like hoes
You can have them bimbos
I'll keep my women like Flo Jo
A word to the thick soul sisters, I wanna get with ya
I won't cuss or hit ya
But I gotta be straight when I say I wanna *fuck*
Till the break of dawn
Baby got it goin' on
A lot of simps won't like this song
'Cause them punks like to hit it and quit it
And I'd rather stay and play
'Cause I'm long, and I'm strong
And I'm down to get the friction on
So, ladies! {Yeah!} Ladies! {Yeah}
If you wanna roll in my Mercedes {Yeah!}
Then turn around! Stick it out!
Even white boys got to shout
Baby got back!

Baby got back!
Yeah, baby ... when it comes to females, Cosmo ain't got nothin'
to do with my selection. 36-24-36? Ha ha, only if she's 5'3".

[Sir Mix-a-Lot]
So your girlfriend rolls a Honda, playin' workout tapes by Fonda
But Fonda ain't got a motor in the back of her Honda
My anaconda don't want none
Unless you've got buns, hun
You can do side bends or sit-ups,
But please don't lose that butt
Some brothers wanna play that "hard" role
And tell you that the butt ain't gold
So they toss it and leave it
And I pull up quick to retrieve it
So Cosmo says you're fat
Well I ain't down with that!
'Cause your waist is small and your curves are kickin'
And I'm thinkin' bout stickin'
To the beanpole dames in the magazines:
You ain't it, Miss Thing!
Give me a sister, I can't resist her
Red beans and rice didn't miss her
Some knucklehead tried to dis
'Cause his girls are on my list
He had game but he chose to hit 'em
And I pull up quick to get wit 'em
So ladies, if the butt is round,
And you want a triple X throw down,
Dial 1-900-MIXALOT
And kick them nasty thoughts
Baby got back!

******

lol lol lol lol.. so cute the lyrics :)

When u see something,
You think of it,
When you think of that something,
You Dream of it,
When you Dream of that something,
You want it,
When you want that something,
You try to get it,
When u got that something,
You hold on to it,
When you lost it,
You wished you never got it in the first place.



time comes and goes..
people comes and goes..
feelings comes and goes..

BUT. family and friends say forever..


you arked if i was okay.. i litterally had to choke a yes. how could it be okay??

for that moment .. it couldn't be okay. it can't be okay.NOTHING could be okay.

It would be like telling the child who broke the glass "its okay.. i can glue it back =) "

=.=''

i've cried one litre of tears (or mayb i exaggereted but i like the movie =) )
i"ve have sleepless nights..
i thought about you..

now..
my tears are dry.
i can tell ppl " I'M OKAY" and i mean it ( 96.9%) :P
i'm moving on. i'm flipping the pages. i'm gonna start a new chapter in my life.
makes me wonder.. did you get tired those days? because you were running through my mind the whole day n night :P

but the more you think about it, the better you feel about it.
the more you realise the people around you who cares..

there is still a long road to ge.. i've got things to do. places to go and people to meet.


i wont say i regretted it.. i just.. owh well.. wanna thank you for teaching me alot of things :)

past few days..

after dropping my parents at the airport last friday RC had a bbq.. although we went to school at 2.. we dint prepare the bbq equipment.. we stalled till bout 4 and realised we had so much to do!!we were running around like crazy ppl carrying pits ( don worry.. not armpits), carring sand to put below the bbq pit.. bringing the charcoal.. omg!!! its really hard work carring the sand all the way to the field..i tot i couldnt make it.. but.. owh well!!! I DID!! :)))but even when we got the pits ready for bbqing.. we didnt know how to get the fire started.. so.. it was pointless until martin and sean showed up.. hahhaa.. but.. i also kepoed and help fan there until i was covered in carbonie stuff.. damn the food was great :Pwell mayb this picture is a lil exaggerated but!!! almost la.. heh heh

after the bbq i went to joanne's house till two to help finish some orders.. omg.. i was so so so tired!!!!!!!

the my bro and sis came back *jumps in the air kicking feet together * YAY!!!then we had family .. well sibling time out to eat laksa :)

this is before going to pick my parents from the airport and going to dinner after
i went to damai after today.. but i'll blog bout it someother day.. :)
after we came down.. we went shishaing.. smoking flavours without nicotin and stuff.. just flavours in smokes.. :)

today there was an interact dinner.. and i was told it was a formal one so we all dressed nicely.. but some others didnt.. grrrrgot ready :)

the dinner was at sarawak club and the served butter prawns :) hehehe*smack lips*

the entertainment was not bad.. except the dancers.. well they were also entertaining bcuz the crack me up like hell.. :Pif u look carefully.. they look like dancers from the stripper clubs and they dance like that too.. expecially the one in pink.. i almost puked and lost my appetite but luckily they were serving beggers chicken so i coultnt resist :p

i had to go up to receive the prize fot the world water moniteriing day banner.. and we got CONSOLATION :(
i tot purs was nice!!! damn they got bad taste.. tsk!!!
while i was walking up.. i hear ppl talking bout me
*whisper* why she wear so sexy.. omg!! i can hear u la.. except i cool ma.. don look :) (omg damn si ai bin)

went to senso after.. and just listened to the emo songs we requested ..then some korean guy had to ruin the moment by dancing with the singers.. oomg!!! he can just completely fail.. but it amused us.. cuz he danced like a *cough cow cough*
after that we just took plenty of photos :)

my first time out with frens during the holidays

lippy was the first to reach.. n i was the second.. so.. we went around the newly renovated Sarawak Plaza.. and the shop that we hitched is.. Zerlina.. pity the worker..hopefully we didnt stretch the clothes.. cuz we just put it over our heads.. and when maxine called we dumped the clothes there =) owh well... mayb we can just point fingers at,, maxine?? hehehehe

after that we waited for the rest in coffee bean.. and we were making a riot without realising that we didnt order a drink even.. it was embarassing so we quickly left.. :) we dined at "pizza more" (the old italianos)

hmm.. the food wasnt that bad .. i think????

its either lippy donli look pictures of us or she just sent me those pictures im in too.. haha.. i not too sure bout that,, hmmm


omg!!!!! astigmatism contact lenses so damn expensive!!!!!!!
i went o check my eye to get a new pair of contacts cuz mine expired.. so she gave me another test to check my eye degree and stuff.. DAMN!! she scared me like &%$#@#$$%#
The lady kept asking me questions like reading the alphabats,, i felt really really blind because i really couldnt see..
honestly.. i could onli read the first and second line clearly without my glasses.. so when she was asking the other lines i was guessing the alphabats hoping its correct and praying my degree is low.. :(

last year i went to check.. my degree was.

right -250
left - 100 with 100 astigmatism

NOW!!!!! right - 250
left - 100 with 250 astig..

250 okie!!!!!!

its like friggin' high!!!!! seriously.. i dint notice how blur things were with my right eyes closed... hmm.. no wonder the right side's degree is so high cuz it has been helping my left eye to see... and the lady said i cannot wear normal contact lenses like i have been all these while.. so it affected my degree too.. =.="

the real lenses has 3 tiny strokes on it.. which means its suppose to be at the bottom.. i spent a GEMILLION seconds tring to find the strokes before putting it in my eye.. sigh.. and after that i got informed that no matter wad side i put it in.. it will automatically rotate to fit my eye.. SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME EARLIER SO I DON HAVE TO LOOK SO SO SO LONG.. :(
nvm!! at least i telling u ppl now..

Astigmatism is a vision condition that causes blurred vision due either to the irregular shape of the cornea, the clear front cover of the eye, or sometimes the curvature of the lens inside the eye. An irregular shaped cornea or lens prevents light from focusing properly on the retina, the light sensitive surface at the back of the eye. As a result, vision becomes blurred at any distance.

Astigmatism is a very common vision condition. Most people have some degree of astigmatism. Slight amounts of astigmatism usually don't affect vision and don't require treatment. However, larger amounts cause distorted or blurred vision, eye discomfort and headaches

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THINGS I'M PASSIONATE ABOUT

1.hmm.. makes me wonder.. im happy doing nothing aw well...

THINGS I SAY TOO OFTEN

1. peng
2.lame
3.ok

BOOKS I READ RECENTLY

well.. none.. :)

SONGS I CAN LISTEN TO AGAIN AND AGAIN

1. love bug
2. womaniser
3. krazy
4. miss independant
5. closer
6.break the ice
7.this is me
8.thats not my name
9. so what
10.push the button
11.pocket full of sunshine
12.let it rock
13. just dance
14. i hate this part
15.hot and cold
16.fall for you
17.better in time
18. goodnight goodbye
19. take the next plane home


i would wanna go on forever.. but my fingers are tired